I wanted to be alone so I wouldn't be recognized." She wanted to remain incognito - the reason that she hadn't reported he theft, but she claimed she must still find her money and guide.Amanda forced it back.A series of church doors closed and exploded before a final one slammed shut, forever blocking access between Alice and Amanda.Tony stole the letter from his wife's handbag when it had become "an obsession" for him.He had also blackmailed her to admit to the affair: "I even wrote her two anonymous notes offering to sell it back.I was doing everything like in a dream.Like I was watchin' myself, but I couldn't help it - like a dream." She punctuates her entire rendition of the events of the day of the shooting with eating episodes (two rare hamburgers and lemon meringue pie, for instance), capped by her final line:Doris:.What a country! Let's have a drink."During a rendezvous in the observation deck, 'Doc' and Lily talked about their past relationship when she had acted o make him jealous - and lost him: "You left me without a word purely because I indulged in a woman's trick o make you - jealous.